Monday, November 1, 2010

All I Want

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be . . .

~ Joni


All I want is Josh. Not the Josh of my dreams, not the Josh of my memory, not the Josh of my imagination, not the Josh of my prayer.


I want the flesh and blood Josh of my life. I want him to go to work or grad school, I want him to marry that beautiful girl and adopt those Vietnamese children, I want to watch my tall blond son teaching his dark-haired boys and girls how to play soccer on the beach.


Why is that too much to ask?

11 comments:

karen gerstenberger said...

I am so sorry...I don't know why. Sending love to you.

Magdalene6127 said...

Oh my friend, there are no words. And I have no answer. Sending my love.

Karen said...

exactly...so sorry...so sad.

Cynthia said...

((()))

Lisa :-] said...

Sometimes, you just have to stamp your feet, shake your fist at the sky and scream....

Robin said...

Lisa, I had just been thinking that, for the first time in 25 months, the 24/7 screaming in my head was gone. I guess I just had a brief respite there.

maggie j said...

I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

christine said...

i hear you-i want what you want. late night, no sleep. lots swirling tonight.

Mompriest said...

it is not too much to ask or want...

Carol said...

{{{{{{Robin}}}}}}}

Presbyterian Gal said...

No it's not.